I was never really raised with religion or going to church every Sunday. When I was about 6 months old, my grandparents who were traditional Roman Catholics convinced my parents to have me baptized as a Catholic. My parents divorced when I was very young, and throughout my childhood I lived with both my parents at different times in my life. My mother was never very religious in her life, so I was never exposed to religion in that household. My father on the other hand struggled with his faith off and on with his life and my childhood. My father went through periods of time where we went to many different churches practicing many different religions and time where he was against religion. I was exposed to everything from Catholicism, Mormonism, Christianity and even Judaism before the age of 18. I never really understood any religion as a child. I always questioned the Bible and all religions and faiths, maybe because my father did too, who knows....
In my early adulthood, I faced many challenges and ups and downs learning how to become an adult, but never truly having Jesus in my life. When, I was 27 my life changed, I became pregnant for the first time. I was not married and my boyfriend did not want me to have my son and begged me to abort my pregnancy. Knowing in my heart, that I could never do that to my unborn son, I decided to keep my pregnancy and raise my son all by myself. I raised my son by myself, as a single mom for 9 years.
I tried many times to go back to church to try and raise my son right with Christ. I did the Traditional Catholic Baptism for him because that's all I knew, but still my heart wasn't fully with Christ. My best friend and her family would invite me to HDC all the time, and finally one day I decided to go. Since then, my son and I would go off and on for several years to HDC. I still never fully gave myself to Christ because I still had doubts in my mind about religion but I enjoyed coming to services.
In 2015, God sent me the love of my life Robyn and we became engaged in January of 2017. He is truly a blessing to me and my son. Life started to come together the way I always hoped for. Unfortunately, my fiancé never was exposed to religion or Jesus Christ in his life. He has a lot of questions as I still did, so I stopped coming to HDC. I wanted to go but I never made it a priority. So I became lost again, even though I finally had everything I have ever wanted in my personal life (a house, love, etc.) I was still missing something.
On August 6, 2017, my world came crashing in like a ton of bricks. At 5:30 p.m. on August 6, 2017 I received a phone call from my Step-Father that forever changed my life. My Beloved Mother (my best friend), I suffered a major aneurism in the middle of her brain while out visiting some relatives in Idaho. My mother had to be airlifted to the University of Salt Lake Medical Center for emergency surgery. Knowing that it was a 50/50 chance my mom would survive my step-father and I drive all night to Salt Lake City to be with my mom. I remember driving on the long road in the middle of the night with my step-dad, crying and thinking how I couldn't get there fast enough. The car ride was very long and silent, my dad and I maybe spoke three words the entire time and we never slept. The whole time in I was thinking about my mother and what she was going through, and how could this happen. I remember like it was yesterday, me praying with all my heart and soul to Jesus to please save my mom. I had never cried and prayed so hard in my life. It was at this time I gave myself to Jesus and admit I was a sinner and I believed in Jesus Christ as my Savior.
The Lord saved my mom’s life that night. She had many challenges and still has many challenges to fully recover, but I am so blessed the Jesus heard my prayers. Why I was out in Utah, my best friend and her family prayed for me and my mother every day and even had their small groups praying for us. I had such amazing support from people I didn't even know from HDC praying for my family. My family and I were truly blessed with all the love and support that HDC brought to our family. While I was out there, watching over my mother I had this pain in my heart that I had never felt before. Even though my mother was recovering and I had a large support system, sometimes was missing. I could not get over this strange feeling I was having, causing me to cry and pray every day. It wasn't an actual feeling like pain but a feeling that I had something missing in my life. I knew that it was the Holy Spirit telling me I needing to come to Jesus, and go back to church and get involved and give back to others. It finally became clear to me! I knew Jesus was real; he heard my prayers and the prayers of others; he showed me what he can do if you just believe and have faith in him.... From that day on, I haven't questioned religion, God, Jesus or the path of following him again. I know he spoke to me that day and I will never doubt him again.
I returned back to Victorville after spending 2 months in Salt Lake City, at the end of September 2017. Since I have been home I gone to Sunday Service every weekend. I have taken a tour of the church for the first time, I have taken the membership class, and now the Baptism class. I am fully dedicated now to Jesus Christ and I am wanting to give back to my community and HDC my church. My fiancé still is struggling with accepting Jesus but is fully supportive of my wanted to serve the Lord. I am hoping that with my help and showing him the teachings of the Lord and my public display of accepting Christ in my life, that he will one day become a believer.