I was living with so much guilt about things I had done, and how much hurt I had caused my children, and family. No matter how much I apologized I never felt forgiven. My life before coming to Christ was COMPLETE CHAOS. I felt nothing but anger, sadness, rage, hopeless, but I tried to ignore all these feelings.
How, When, and Why:
About 2 and a half years ago I was ready to give up. I was tired. Tired of feeling lost, and alone. Tired of being so angry and frustrated all the time. I couldn't understand why although I had changed everything in mine and my family's lives why it seemed like not much had changed. I asked God to help me understand. I asked him to show me where the problem was, and he did. The problem was within me. So I finally made the choice to try the one thing I kept trying to avoid, and I started coming to church. Instantly I felt at home. It hasn't been easy, but through it all I have grown and my faith and my relationship with Christ has grown. About 6 months ago I gave my life to Christ.
Life is different now because I have a relationship with Christ. I praise him through good and bad. Life still happens, but now rather then fall apart I turn to him. I put him first. I know he is my savior, and that in itself is calming to me.