As a young child, my family and I attended a Baptist Church in Northern California. It was at that time, at the age of approximately 7 or 8, I asked Jesus to come into my life. In comparing the “ABC” concept, I would say this is when I “A” Admitted – confessed that I am a sinner; and, when I became a true “B” Believer – that Jesus is the Son of God, that he died on the cross for my sins and was resurrected. However Choosing “C” to have a personal relationship with Jesus seemed to be lacking and that true understanding of this step came later in my life.
Somewhere around the age of 11 or 12, we no longer continued attending this Church; however, the reason we stopped is not completely clear or known to me. I know it was the next few years that I began falling away from the Lord and began down my own path, a path that was lacking, to say the least. This path took many turns and went on for many, many years; and, in that time I had two daughters that I raised as a single parent. I wasn’t an obedient child of God during these years, but I do think He watched over me and guided me along the way. Some years later, I moved down her to Southern California, married my husband and had a son.
It was not until I felt my life was spiraling so far out of control; with a hardened heart, failing marriage, and a son that was heading in the wrong direction. I knew that I needed God to intercede, to change me, to save my marriage and my family. I prayed again as we drove to HDC in Victorville about two years ago. Jesus heard my cry and with His grace he completely changed me and all of our lives from that time on. During the service I prayed and dedicated my life to the Lord and this is when I truly committed and began to understand what the “C” Choosing part of the “ABC’s” really meant, because I chose to trust and follow Jesus.
I now feel a sense of peace in my heart that I had never felt before. This was a physical and emotional inner-peace that only came from the grace of God, my surrendering to Him and believing His way was the only way. My desire to know and become closer to Jesus has been stronger than ever before as I surrender myself to Him and see the changes continue in my life and the whole family, including my grown daughters, their families and my parents too.
Psalms 25: 4-7
Show me your ways, Lord, teach me your paths. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are my God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. Remember, Lord, your great mercy and love, for they are from of old. Do not remember the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways; according to your love remember me, for you Lord, are good.