As a child I knew I always had some connection with God and Jesus, but at the time I did not know the truth or the story behind the religion. As I got older, I knew a lot of the things I did were not the right things, so for a good majority of my life I lived my life for myself -- a very selfish life and very self loathing life, even though I felt a calling in the back of my mind.
I finally found Jesus in my early twenty's while I was incarcerated, and when I was released I started attending church and got more into my religion. But even then, I did not know the whole truth, and once again, I relapsed and found myself doing drugs and alcohol and living a very selfish life once again.
It wasn’t until about 4 months ago that I found myself in the hospital on an overdose and I thought I was about to die. I never felt so alone in my life. At the moment I thought I was going to die, there was no bright light, there was no voice, there was absolutely nothing but me and my selfishness.
After being released from the hospital, I felt the strongest calling ever. I knew I needed to know more about Jesus. From that point on, I started listening to Scriptures on YouTube, going to church, and watching any kind of movie about the Bible to learn as much as I could about Jesus and GOD.
Since then I have found that things started working out for me in ways I could not explain. I got married, I got a job, and most of all I felt a peace within myself. So I came to a crossroads about where I should go next in my walk with Jesus, and it led me to baptism. I cannot explain the joy and excitement I receive each day knowing that I am walking with Jesus. It's hard to explain, but things always seem to work out now. All my life I thought that being a real Christian would mean that the party was over, but I was wrong! I see now that the party has just begun when I began to walk with Jesus. AMEN!