I grew up in a Christian home and attended Christian elementary school for a few years. I had always thought of myself as a follower of Christ, and I did my best to be kind, do good, and be honorable. As I grew older, however, I began to drift away from the ideals I thought I was still following, and convinced myself that since I already knew what the right path was, I didn't have to go to church for them to tell me what I already knew. While I said I was a believer, I was really just following my own rules that I had created, and my pride was keeping me from following the path and building on the foundation that God had given me. I knew that I was disobedient, but I didn't want to admit that fact.
My mom and I both shared this attitude, but this January it was she who spurred me to action by suggesting that I could be a strong Christian, and that I should join a small group to surround myself with other strong followers. I wanted to get closer to God, so I agreed and we began attending church again. I immersed myself in the Word and was thrilled to go to small group every week, and I began to see all the ways that I could regain my relationship with Christ.
While it was a gradual and difficult process to let go of my own pride, I am now certain that I am where I need to be. Jesus has taken away all my doubts and fears, replacing them with hope and purpose that will carry me all the way along the path He has set for me.