My entire life was so self-centered that I didn’t realize the big picture. I was living for myself and I was seeking people to try to make myself happy. I was just focused on the world.
When God opened my eyes and my heart, I understood the big picture. The big picture is that this life is quickly fading and I am here to serve God and do His will. This life is so temporary, my main goal here on earth is to serve God and build His kingdom. All my life I was making the God of the Universe my slave. I would call on him only when I needed his help to solve my “problem”. When it should be the other way around. I should be serving Him with all my heart because of what He has done for the world, which is send his only Son to die on the cross.
Reading the bible and praying is so intimate now. I actually understand what the Scriptures are saying and its so comforting to know that the God of the universe cares about what I have to say and to have direct contact with Him because of what Jesus did for us.
Before, I would go to church to make my worldly life better and to solve what problems I had going on. I would call myself a Christian but my actions said otherwise. But now, my focus is on Gods kingdom and not so much on this world. I love going to church to feed my spirit but at the same time, I love to have one-on-one time with God. On my down time, I love learning more about Him. I don’t desire to go out and party and I don’t desire those harmful relationships that I once had. I just do not desire the things of this world anymore. God has completely filled my void and I know it’s not a temporary fulfillment, its eternal.
The Lord has changed my heart so much and opened my eyes so much and I am so thankful. I am giving Him all the glory because I know I couldn’t have done this on my own.